Friday, September 26, 2008

our last 24 hours together...


you were right this time his leaving is harder than the first time. he leaves tomorrow morning... early morning. i'm dreading the 3 hour drive home from the airport becuase i'll have all that time to just sit and think, i'm dreading getting used to not having around again, i'm dreading every night not watching "our shows" together or being able to talk to him right before we close our eyes, i'm dreading the kids asking "whens dad coming home?"..."have you talked to dad? is he okay?"...i'm dreading doing parent teacher conferences and coming home to no one to tell how smart our kids are and to secretly snicker at what antics our 8 year old has pulled lately...i'm dreading a lot, but i've already done 7 months. more than half way is already done, i can do it, i know i can...but unfortunately right now the rest of this deployment is hanging over my head because of how wonderful it was to have him around, how much easier it is to parent our children when he's around, and how much more at ease i am when he's around. well i'm going to do what i always do ...hold on tight to anything just to keep the sanity.

18 comments:

Sandy said...

Vanessa, you're amazing. Truly. I hope that you know that not only do so many of us appreciate what your husband is doing...but your sacrfices on our behalf as well. Hang in there:)

Rachel H. said...

Oh V! Darn these short little spurts of vacation! I will hope that time will fly and you will be back together again SOOOOOO SOOOON! You are so strong! Hang in there!!

haley said...

i'm tearing up right now... thank you so much for attempting to be sane. we all appriciate what he is doing sooooo much!!! we'll have to plan another lunch soon. good luck and don't waste even one second with him!!!!

burg3g said...

Hey do you want to stop at my house on the way one and we can have a drink together. I have 21 days till Chris comes home and I'm dreading him leaving.

giddygoat said...

I wish I could make it better.

Marci said...

v...keep strong little lady! i'm sure this is soo hard for you. just know that there are lots of people who are praying for you and that we are all here if you need help. i'll even drive to loa!;) thank you thank you thank you for your sacrifice!!

girlsmama said...

I love you and wish I could ease the dread. I'll have you all in my prayers. Stop by if you need to!

Ashli said...

I've been dreading this post...it has been so neat to hear how much fun you two have been having together. We're all praying for you and if you want to take a road trip to Montana....I'd love to meet you. I've got four of my own to play with your babies.

StitchinByTheLake said...

My heart is hurting for you. blessings, marlene

audra garrett said...

My heart is aching for you! I know that feeling! You're good at staying busy so just stay busy and time will fly and get a webcam! Call me sometime! Love ya!

Nash said...

I am just sick for you.
I am going to drive on up without my husband (he's going out of town for two weeks). If I can't make it to Spanish Fork maybe I'll stop at your house. How far is it from there?
You are so strong!
I look up to you when I am home alone during the week. Hang i there?
When does he come home for good?

Mrs. Trixi said...

Vanessa, I only know you through this forum but I know what you are going through and my heart aches for you. My honey said that the plane ride back over after his R&R was the worst thing of his life. Mine too. I will be praying for you and your sweet family!!!

SLO Rober said...

Hats off to you, vanessa. We're all rooting for all 6 of you.

Fleming Family said...

Tell Jake to take care of himself over there and to help make it possible for all our troops to come home to their loved ones. Can you imagine how strong your relationship will be when you have the reassurance that he will not have to leave again. Look forward to that day and dwell as little as possible on the negative. Keep your eyes toward the glory of God and toward the near future and all will be well!

Deeanna said...

I love you, seriously! You are so genuine. Thanks for sharing on your blog. I look forward to reading your blog entries. I check it everyday. And yes, I am monitoring your countdown to the end of the deployment. And if you do detour to have a "drink" with Burg...I'll even bring enough chocolate for everyone!!! Now we're talking!

Sarah and Jack said...

We don't really know each other (and I am not even sure how I recently found your blog), but I wanted to tell you that you are doing an amazing job taking care of your kids and your home without the daily shoulder of your husband.

I hope the time passes quickly.

Carrie Stevenson said...

Oh I am experiencing so many sympathy memories right now. I almost hated having Jeremy come home because of the imminent goodbye. He was doing training over Thanksgiving and Christmas and I was able to spend a week with him at Ft. Hood before they left so all in all I experienced 5 goodbyes. It was absolutely awful. But the leave goodbye was the worst since I knew it would be the longest. Soon enough his deployment will just be a painful memory which you can say "I did it!!! I actually did it!!!" We are thinking of you and believe army wives have their places reserved in heaven:)

Janis said...

I didn't even have to read the post to begin tearing up. God bless you all.

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